I’ve been putting off boarding this short film because I’ve been stressing about how to accurately roll COVID-19 and my experience into a conversation about Representation in my industry and all the nuances and expectations that come along with that.

I’ve been finding it hard to creatively express my story and my vision for the project while under that kind of pressure. It sounds quite silly, but while discussing this with a colleague I came to the realization that by telling my story I was contributing my narrative and that in itself was representation. I think this will remove a big blocker for me because I’ve been feeling like I have to represent something much bigger than myself. When in reality representing myself in a way that ISN’T being shown in media, is exactly the point of my dissertation.

I’ve been working through the readings on my reading list and will be hoping to post some notes and thoughts on my blog as I continue, but I felt I had to note this mental block and the way it changed the way I thought about this project. I do think that I’ll take a more abstract representational route because I don’t want it to be cheesy or try to stretch to far. So I will have to write a lot for my paper portion about my thoughts and experiences with the topic.